Kathy's Diary

[Kathy Vavrick O’Brien]

HELLOOOOO BENELUX!

I am very excited to be here!! Prior to this game starting I hadn't been in a game for like a month and a half (which may sound like nothing but I have been playing pretty much constantly since I started ORGs in January last year so that's an EXTENDED BREAK by my standards). I've actually been feeling extremely burnt out by and just generally ~over~ ORGs since Twisted 6: Stockholm Syndrome (which finished in like, February), but for some god forsaken reason I continued to play game after game, which has led to a lot of Poor Efforts by me over recent months (though I did also get a semi impressive win in the process, so there's that). ANYWAY, the point is that I am feeling revitalized after just basically completely forgetting about ORGs for 6 weeks and am now ready to get my 5th win (I am so humble).

In saying that, I have to admit that I probably haven't had the strongest start of all time. I'm apparently kinda dumb and got the start day mixed up so I ended up missing the initial night of socializing after tribes were posted. That first few hours is always pretty vital because everyone starts getting a ~feel~ for each other and making an early positive first impression can set you up really well for later on. Unfortunately, I schruted it, and showed up fashionably late the next day. Since then, I have only talked to half my tribe on a one on one basis (Ian/Jaclyn/Glyn/Jasmine). You might think this is kinda bad, and in a way it sort of is, but along with Jasmine I carried my tribe through the part of the challenge we managed to complete today, so I hope that made the people I hadn't had the chance to talk to value me as a tribe member? I am glad that I managed to get exiled, though, especially since we ended up coming dead last (still mad that I tried "oxbowlake" 3 times but not "oxbow" on its own. WHY GOD). I haven't yet got a feel for what the dynamics of the tribe are like, but I'm convinced I would have been in at least a little trouble after the obvious Jon Vito first boot. Now that I'm not there, I'm going to hedge my bets on Adrienne, for no particular reason other than the fact that she seems to be the most disconnected and quiet of the lot. Jasmine and Tom would have been my other potential guesses before today, but while Tom didn't show up to the challenge until we were already at the 10th station, people seemed to react positively to his presence, so maybe he's already established himself as well-liked within the group. Jasmine's timezone could in theory be an issue for her, she showed up for the challenge at like 2am her time and killed it. That has got to earn her some credit. 


There are definitely some downsides to being exiled too?? Like, I'm obviously missing out on 2 tribal councils worth of strategic bonding, and the second tribal council especially is surely likely to result in the formation of voting blocs or loose alliances (if those don't already exist, and I wouldn't be surprised if they do. For some reason, Jaclyn in particular comes off to me as the type of person who would want to solidify things early on). On top of that, I shot myself in the foot by not being around on the first night, and when I get back, people will likely automatically be suspicious of me because it's universally known that there's an idol available here. MY PLAN when I get back is to figure out who the core 2 or 3 people are on the tribe (I already suspect it'll be Glyn/Ian/Jaclyn/maybe Viv tbh) and snuggle up to them and potentially share the idol clue with a couple of them to try and ensure my safety. I think Jaclyn and I have serious conversational potential based solely off the little bit of interaction we had today, Ian is pretty nice to talk to thus far, and Glyn seems to like me (though wtf that schtick I weirdly love it instead of being annoyed by it but idk how long that'll last) so I'm hoping it won't be too much trouble? WE WILL SEE THOUGH. For now I am stuck here for the next 3 days contemplating existence. Maybe I should forge an exile alliance as a Tocantins throwback for fun? 

[Joaquin Souberbielle]

hi now i'm the one that gets to do the stalking, nice change of pace

[Katia Winter]

Hobby suggestion: You're a midfielder for a 50+ women's rugby team and after you get all sweaty and gross you and your squad bar hops the cougar bars in New York picking up men ages 18-25. You work all day party all night and never sleep.


Things Kathy and I discuss while she's Exiled.

[Kathy Vavrick O’Brien]

I am very curious as to what exactly is going on with this tribe. The paranoid wreck part of me thinks they are intentionally throwing the challenge to get rid of me. We have gotten literally nowhere with our writing despite the fact that our time is over half gone and every time l ask for some kind of direction in the tribe chat I get either a lukewarm response or no acknowledgement at all. None of them seem to be too eager to talk to me, especially recently, and the fact that I'm visiting my mum at the moment and have no internet besides my phone is making things worse. Jaclyn is on vacation and in a similar availability rut to me and she is the only person who has contributed anything of substance to the working thread. I think that speaks for itself.

The question is thus: do I spend my night tonight trying to write the best story I can for this tribe, not knowing whether any of them will contribute and being almost certain we'll still lose regardless of what I do, or do I do as everyone else is doing and just be lazy as fuck? It seems like the result will be the same either way and I have assignments I could be doing which should logically take precedence over working for a tribe that doesn't appear to care for my presence at all. Unfortunately, I am not a very logical person, so there's no guarantee that I'll make the choice that makes the most sense.

S I G H. I guess we will see what happens

[Kathy Vavrick O’Brien]

WELL WE GOT THE EXPECTED RESULT. I actually don't really regret spending like over 2 hours writing that trash heap story though? As a host, I really really don't like when tribes submit nothing at all for a creative challenge, especially with an extended deadline, and since no one else seemed to want to get anything of significance done and I felt like I wasn't in a particularly secure position, the buck kind of fell on me. 

I have a feeling I might be safe this round THANKFULLY. There was a period of uncertainty last night where I thought I was fucked for sure but things are looking much better now and I thiiiink Adrianne should be leaving unanimously. I can't REALLY complain because I mean, it's not me and Adrianne and I have literally never talked one on one which is kind of a travesty this late into the game BUT I do have a potentially problematic opinion I'd like to share.

I DON'T KNOW if this is blasphemous or not in the eyes of the PWs but I would um actually prefer for Glyn to leave. I know it's not going to happen so I don't know why I'm entertaining the thought but I found his little blowup at the challenge deadline last night very ... uncute and uncouth, tbh. I also think that Adrianne seems way more stable and trustworthy than him. She's quiet but I feel like there's something solid about her. I don't trust hardcore character players by default because I feel like it's difficult to ascertain their real motives and that makes me very uncomfortable?? So like, I don't have a lot of hope for mine and Glyn's relationship as far as the game goes. on top of all that I think he is Ian's right hand man and I don't want Ian controlling this tribe.

THANKFULLY ... Jasmine exists. I think she likes me the best of anyone here and I think she might have charmed her way into Ian's heart. She made up this completely phony story about Jaclyn throwing Ian under the bus and Ian fell for it hook, line and sinker and seemed to go into panic mode and asked Jasmine and I for an alliance. I still don't buy that other alliances haven't already been made, but it's nice to have at least some kind of (supposed) security.

In saying all of that! if I get blindsided I will honestly not be that surprised although I do think it would be kind of rude and unnecessary considering how much effort I put into challenges and how much better I seem to be at conversation than Adrianne. I feel like Ian is dictating everything right now (like... when I expressed to Jaclyn that I was a bit worried about the vote she said "Ian seems to like you enough so I'm sure you'll be fine". R U 4 REAL?) and tbh I shared my exile clue with him and told him I was stumped by it so he knows I'm very unlikely to have the exile idol WHICH logically means going to all this effort to make alliances etc. only to blindside me would just be cruel. Jasmine actually wanted to try to blindside him this round LMAO bless her soul but I don't think we'd be able to get the numbers. maybe next round if like Glyn is exiled we can pull one of Viv or Jaclyn and flip it on Ian if necessary?? HMMM. we will see.

[Kathy Vavrick O’Brien]

LMAO I have really changed my tune since my last post because I am really not sure who Vivica is. I think she took her Hunger Games role too seriously and has actually died or something because I haven't seen her in days!!!! TBH THOUGH it has been pretty fuckin quiet all round. I'm in a ~hectic period~ at uni and had a busy weekend that I was also kinda sick throughout so I am not gonna sit here and tell you that I've been the most active person ever. I just swear 2 god that every time I log on NO ONE IS THERE. not even Ian who I am SURE was online like 24/7 as of last week. speaking of Ian I am completely over any plans I might have had to blindside him now. I feel like I was just hungry 4 excitement and it ended up translating into stupidity and drama which sadly is a habit I have in games sometimes. I start worrying that I'm too UTR or am playing a boring game which is SO NOT ME and it makes me want to do something ~wild~ to like put myself on the map. ANYWAY................


I still like Jasmine a lot but her timezone continues to be problematic. I am over Glyn and we haven't talked in days and Jaclyn hasn't made any attempt to talk to me recently. I am honestly so thirsty for a swap. I need new life breathed into my game because while this alliance is cute we are not really making any strategic progress because we are in such a small group rn we haven't had a lot to talk about or any ~big decisions~ to make together. I don't really see it going the distance tbh!!!! Especially if we are split up. Ian will probably return to his former activity level once he has new people to talk to and will integrate himself effortlessly and I think Jasmine will fall out of contention 4 the W completely and be booted soon after the swap just because her activity is spotty and badly timed. I think I am good enough socially to set myself up in a new tribe but I guess WE WILL SEE!!!! We are apparently voting Viv out unanimously tonight but I still won't be horribly shocked if I die here because I truly do half expect to be blindsided at any given tribal. OH WELL HERE GOES NOTHING !!!!!!!!

[Katia Winter]

Hey cougar! What's going down with ya? We miss you in here!