Confessionals Round 2: "Like a cockroach"

[Natalie Anderson]

You can't get rid of me

Natalie's social game: 1 point

Amber's social game: GTFO

[Natalie Anderson]

Love being me <3

So I am trying to plan ahead a little bit just to make sure I don't get any more votes next round. This week has been hella busy, which sucks since it is the first week of the game, and I have a wedding on Saturday so won't be around for a lot of the challenge and really wanted to participate.

Speaking of...WHY THE FUCK DID NO ONE RESPOND IN THE TRIBE CHAT?? I said I would be away and no one said anything. I am trying to communicate people and we need to post who is sitting out. I also talked to people individually, so not sure why ANY of them could have replied.

Anyway, I digress...

I get closer to Cody and Austin every day. I love them both so much already and I get along with them very well individually and we get along well as a group. I do trust them, however they are only 2 people which is not majority. I got a vote last round, so I could be an easy target next go around, but child please I am not going home.

We all love Dustin so we want to bring him in as a 4th, which is what I wanted from the beginning so yay! That is still not majority though so I need to figure out how to make sure to get more on our side, especially if one of us goes to exile.

The fact that everyone loves Dustin is great, but also bad because it would be hard for me to gauge if he got close with others in this game.

Tiffany is very game bot like and has already said some things that sketched me out, and I think Cody was feeling the same way so I started trashing her in our alliance chat. He is worried Tiffany and Holly are close, and I agree.

However the one thing I am worried about is the fact that Amber talked to a majority of the tribe about voting me, Holly, or Austin. Why did she pick us, and how did everyone else in the tribe get to talking about it. There may be some pre-existing that I don't know about, but that is weighing on my mind, and I feel Cody could be a part of it. I am going to keep flirting with him and get him on my side in case my suspicions are right. He also mentioned he didn't want to include too many people in our alliance as it would be messy. And he recommended Dustin who wasn't here, so I do feel some type of alliance could have been formed between Tiffany, Cody, Tim, Simon, and maybe Holly (and maybe initially Amber) but they were annoyed by Amber so just booted her. I am hoping me or Austin weren't their next target.

I do trust Cody, but I need to think outside the box and all angles so I am not blindsided, so I don't want to be blind to the fact that he may have something else going on.

[Natalie Anderson]

Ok so things are coming together really well, or I'm the target.

I have never had an alliance form so easily before, it is kind of scary. Like really, I like Austin, Cody, Dustin the most and want to work with them and I ask them all who they like the most and they all say the same people. Like that never happens...EVER. Does the rest of our tribe just have that shitty of personalities that we all like each other the best? Like I mentioned earlier I get paranoid easily, but I feel really good about this and have full trust in this foursome.

Not only that but I was nervous about who was closest to who, and it actually may be possible that I am closest to each of them. Cody was venting to me about the challenge and has expressed distrust with Tiffany and Holly, and now Tim with this challenge. Dustin shared with me his idol clue from Exile (which I can't figure out btdubs), and Austin said he trusts me the most since we have a similar schedule.

I feel like I am missing something. Am I really that likeable? I don't want to let paranoia ruin a good thing, so for now I am just going to say I am killing it

Also, I'm kind of a bitch...I'm not at the wedding yet and I went to the movies instead, but I told everyone I was at the wedding just as an excuse why I wasn't online. I really do have a wedding tomorrow, I am just leaving tomorrow morning. So while everyone is working on the challenge I have been looking for the Hidden Immuinity Idol :x


#sneakybetch

[Natalie Anderson]

So Dustin's little conscience was bothering him and decided to come clean in the alliance chat about telling basically everyone about the idol clue, and that he and Cody and a 3 person alliance with Holly. He said he wanted to come clean about it since he trusts us the most.

Does this make me trust Dustin?

Yes

Does this make me wary of Dustin?

Yes

Does this make me want to not keep Cody and Dustin as tight with as I want?

Yes

I think this shows that my suspicions were right in that there was some other deal or alliance going on initially and I do feel that the 4 of us are close and that this what everyone actually wants. However it now also shows me that Cody and Dustin are probably closest to each other if they were both involved in this Holly agreement. They probably have a final 2 deal and I need to watch for that later down the line.

I also need to be careful since Dustin told us all the idol clue, and no one told me that Dustin told them. So either people just didn't want to be shady right away or they trust Dustin more. This gives Dustin a lot of hold and power over us as well.


Right now the 4 of us are ride or die, but it is something I just need to keep in the back of my mind for later in the game.