The place where I will confess

[Ian Rosenberger]

This thread is more of a stream of concsiousness kinda thing. I have an idea for episodic confessionals which could be a little time consuming the way I am thinking of it so IDK if I'll be punctual with those. This will serve as a place where I can add blurbs from time to time without thinking too much about it.

So hey hi. I am playing as Ian. And I am trying something semi-new with this game. I am trying NOT to use flirting as a way to "bond" with the female reps. I am also going to actively try to have a guy rep as my #1 ally. This game's rep choices are so out there I have no idea who's who and that's going to stay the case for a while.

On my blue tribe so far, I have only talked to Glyn, Adrainne and today morning with Jaclyn.

Glyn has a weird but fun thing where each word he types is capitalized. I really dig it a lot. He's overly enthusiastic and talkative which I love. He looks like the guy who's good to just shoot the breeze with whenever.

Adrainne is really boring. But good god that's a smoking hot rep choice. *to self* Control yourself Ian. Control. *deep breaths* But yeah she is boring, tends to give one or two word replies and generally doesn't try to move the conversation forward.

Jaclyn so far has been pretty engaging. She and I were talking about her time at Disneyland yesterday. In most cases the actual CONTENT of the first conversation isn't TOO important. Atleast to me. It's more the APPROACH to it. And so far I am liking Jaclyn in that regard. I have a feeling though that I came off as boring to her. I tried my best to contribute to the chat but I couldn't keep up with her efforts if that makes sense. I'd like to see where this goes.

I am BEYOND RELIEVED that cross tribal communication isn't allowed. Like I would have died trying to talk to 26 other people.

I think that's all I have for now. I am EXCITED for this game and I want to make it a memorable one. Fingers crossed.

[Ian Rosenberger]

Vivica uses the word "boo" way too much. That's gonna get old fast.

[Ian Rosenberger]

I am like 90% sure Jasmine is Zavi.

And the Glyn guy censors his curse words with asterisks. "Fr*ckin". I only know one guy who does that and that's Ocsar. He's been fun so far.

I really enjoying talking with Vivica despite the incessant usage of "boo" I could see myself working with her long term.

[Clint Black]

Rootin for you this time!

[Ian Rosenberger]

So the round overall has been pretty eventful for me. I expected the password unlocking comp to be the first one based on viewing Euro 1. And as ecpected I SUCKED at it. In general LIVE comps aren't my thing. But Jasmine, Kathy and Adrienne REALLY kicked ass. Like they stepped up BIG time. Glyn, Vivica and I were flops but trying to help. Jaclyn was somewhere in between. She helped organize a lot of stuff. Tom was annoying as heck and not even a little helpful. Jon Vito was non existent.

That's a pretty good illustration of how our tribe is divided at the moment imo. Glyn, Vivica and I are the more social/taklative ones. Jasmine, Adrienne and Kathy are more focused on doing well in challenges. Jaclyn is fairly balanced - good at both. Tom is a frustrating presence. Jon Vito is no longer with us (RIP)

After the challenge was over, we all just generally agreed Jon Vito would be boot #1 Even though he showed up in TC, he never did on AIM. So nothing eventful there. But during that phase I touched base with Vivica, Jaclyn and Glyn. I talked pretty openly with all of them to put together an alliance of us 4. But it went a little differently than I imagined. Vivica wants it to be a trio with me and Jaclyn. As does Jaclyn. When I brought up Glyn they were cool to "add him as a fourth" That's not how I woul think of it. To me Glyn is my closest ally here. He is the funnest. Vivica I would say is second to him. I keep changing my mind about Jaclyn a lot because she tends to drop conversations a lot. But when she is here she is pretty engaging. So I filled Glyn in on how the girls were approaching the alliance and looking at him as a fourth and what not. He said he didn't care about that. I feel like he and I have the best level of trust with each other at this point and he is my #1 ally.

I did also talk with Jasmine and Adrienne during this phase. Jasmine said she got the best vibes from me and Jaclyn. I was glad to hear it. She and I also talked after the Jon Vito boot and how Tom was annoying her. Tom is going around trying to get Adrienne booted. Speaking of, Adrienne is a bit of a tough case for me. I don't really enjoy my conversations with her. I get bored easily. But it's not for lack of effort on her part. Like she really does try and I appreciate that a lot. But the content is just not engaging. But there was a bright spot late night a couple days ago where she opened up to me about her difficult childhood. I tried to be as supportive as I could. I do believe she trusts me and even likes me to an extent. And I would LIKE for her to stick around. But that means we literally can't lose again because I am not going to vote off Glyn or Vivica, I don't think people will agree to vote off Kathy and Jaclyn. Jasmine is the only other alternative and she carried us in the first comp. That's unlikely to change.

The exile twist is really cool. I like the idea of not being able to communicate when on exile. I didn;t really know how to feel about it also meaning skipping the round entirely. But now I am glad that's how it is. If we're going to lose again I will try my hardest to be the person getting that trip. Not because I care about the idol. I don't care about an idol in a game as big as this. It's pretty meaningless to me right now. I care about not voting again if we lose. It'll behard for me and I will be burning someone. I'd rather just not have anything to do with it.

The current vote looks like TOm Green. That's who Iam voting regardless. The dude barely talks to me and expects me to just agree to vote Adrienne. Nope! Jaclyn is being a bit of a worry to me. She is being wishy washy about her decision here when it's a pretty easy choice. I hope Vivica and Glyn come online soon so that I can be more relaxed about it. I know Jasmine is voting Tom and so is Adrienne. I hope it's unanimous this time.

[Ian Rosenberger]

Round 2 aka Final 24/23:

First off sorry for not confessing over the weekend. I have a cousin visiting so I was out most of the 2 days.

We lost the creative comp which sucks but it was kinda expected. We didn't get our shit together. I haven't even read our final submission. And I am not going to   I like doing creative comps but this one came at an unfotunate time for me. It happens NBD. So now we move onto the vote.

I'll try to break down this confessional into 2 parts. Vote talks and relationships. Lets do vote talk first.

Le vote:

I am kinda bummed Vivica got exiled. She was a surefire vote on my side. At least I think so. We are 6 people at TC right now and while I feel like I am safe, I have to cut someone who trusts me. Because as of now the vote looks like it's either Glyn or Adrienne. Jaclyn talked to me briefly like she always does. Got straight to the point and said it's between Kathy, Adrienne and Jasmine. We settled on Adrienne. Kathy and I talked about an Adrienne vote where Kathy mentioned she has yet to talk to Adrienne. Glyn mentioned something about a fight with Adrienne during the comp. I talked to Adreinne about it today morning and she also mentioned it. She added that her vote is going to Glyn for that reason.

Now this sucks for me. Glyn is my closest ally. Adrienne is someone who trusts me a LOT. I would prefer neither of these two going. I would prefer a Kathy vote but she contributed the most in the comp. I would prefer a Jasmine boot which MAYBE I can get going but I am not sure. My issue is that the two people I don't want to vote are fighting. And I can't singlehandedly fix that. It REALLY sucks.

So as of now I believe Adrienne will go in a 4-2 or 5-1 vote depending on what Jasmine wants. I imagine Jas will be fine with either vote. She wouldn't want to make waves this early.

Le relationships:

I am mixed on Adrienne. She is very monotonous to talk to and it's usually kinda boring. But I know she trusts me and that is very valuable in the game. I WISH I can save her but I am really not sure because it looks like she hasn't been very social with the rest of the tribe.



Glyn is my #1 guy. My main man. I enjoy my chats with him the most. I trust him with game info and its well reciprocated. Glyn isn't going anywhere if I have any say.


I am very torn on Jaclyn. Like she was SO engaging to begin with. Now it feels like its a chore for her to talk to me. I don't know if it's just with me. I don't know what happened to the person who was SO great in early Round 1. Is there a twin twist where 2 people are playing as one and they switched out? God I hope not. She and I are still in an "alliance" with Vivica and Glyn. But IDK. I don't really trust her.


NGL, I almost forgot about Jasmine   LOL. Jasmine is a curious case. I know who it is and its Zavi's usual way of playing. He is overly friendly with people off the bat. Zavi is a loyal guy and very fun to talk with. And here Jasimine has been strong at comps. I am uncertain about where I actually stand with her. She had mentioned she got the best vibes from me and Jaclyn. That could just be her blowing smoke so I am not very comfortable yet.


Kathy is SMART. And perceptive. Like a LOT. And she is actually very easy to talk with. My problem is she doesn't talk a whole lot. If Kathy can be around longer I think I can develop something strong with her. But as of now, the bond is very weak.


I like Vivica a lot. After Glyn she is the most fun one to talk to for me. I trust her to have my back both now and long term. I HOPE the fight during the comp doesn't turn her off from Glyn too. IDEK what I would do in that case.

Le stray thoughts:

So although I DO feel safe from elimination over here for now, I am not feeling like a /ride-or-die/ vibe from my tribe. I would LOVE to go to exile and establish some new bonds. I would LOVE a swap. I don't think I will stick to tribal lines besides maybe Glyn and Vivica. This vote is going to be hard as is and if we lose again, I might just cry.

[Ian Rosenberger]

Round 3 aka Final 22:

This will be short because we won the comp and are safe this round. Adreinne left unanimously which was good. She took it hard but oh well. She was strong in comps but very weak socially. This round I flopped at the challenge but everyone else on my tribe stepped up and we got FIRST freaking place. That was great to see. I was happy to see Jasmine exiled. I trust her a lot and I feel like she will share the exile clue with me if we are back on the same tribe next round.

We got the first clue to our Luxemberg idol but its so vague. Although I am looking at the Luxemberg Idol board and theres 2 posts in there already. So I am assuming the idol has been found by Kathy. Which is not that big a deal to me personally. I think a swap is next at F21 into three tribes of 7 each. I am kinda hoping for a swap because this tribe is pretty dead. No one really initiates conversations besides Glyn. Vivica is borderline inac. Jaclyn stops replying after a few minutes. Kathy is great when she is around but not around much. same with Jasmine. But I do believe everyone on here does have some level of trust in me and I can work with everyone here. But not at the same time if that makes sense. Like I can work with Vivica/Jaclyn or with Kathy/Jasmine but not both pairs. I consider myself a pair with Glyn. This is a great time for a swap. I need some fresh faces to interact with.

So yeah that's about it. Nothing really happened this round that's worh mentioning. Except this funny little message from Vivica.

Bless.

[Ian Rosenberger]

Round 4 aka Final 21:

SO. This round came and went by fast. Sorry for the lack of updates. Weekends and this is the last weekend when my cousin is in town. tl;dr is Vivica is inactive. I have no idea who is voting how but I voted for her. Will talk to Kathy and Jasmine tomorrow. Jaclyn said she would vote Vivica. I am not scared but I am also not confident. More to come.

[Ian Rosenberger]

I have a little time at work so I can write a decent confessional. The triple boot announcement was a pretty unexpected one to me personally. In hindsight should have seen it coming but oh well. The comp itself came at a pretty unlucky time for me since I was out the whole weekend and had unrelaible data. Additonally, proboards on mobile is terrible and tapatalk wasn't loading properly. Even with all that I came CLOSE to winning the exile/immunity lmao. But when the triple boot announcement was made I had kinda made up my mind that it'd be better for Glyn to win this. I wasn't sure where Glyn stood with regards to Kathy/Jasmine and I didn't want to risk an elimination which was not beneficial to me. So I "let" Glyn win which TBF he would have won without my help and I THINK I rubbed him the wrong way by coming off as arrogant? Like we were talking during the last 2 hours when our tribe was down to 7 flags. I told him we shouldn't claim any flags for that hour so that everyone defaults to 1 and then neeed to RUSH and grab the final flag. But the way I explained it came off as know-it-all-y and I'd like to be able to apologize to him if and when we get back on the same tribe together. I feel like despite that little hiccup, he and I are still pretty damn tight so he'd pick me. Unless he wants to distance himself from me and meet back at the merge/next swap. Which would be fine too. I think he will end up picking me though.

As far as the vote itself goes, I gotta say this tribe has been a huge letdown in terms of sheer activity. I literally was able to be online on AIM more than all of these people combined when I was on a shitty data connection -__- I am SUPER glad we are swapping so that I can feel as if the game is ACTUALLY being played. Like Jasmine has not talked to me AT ALL for the whole round. Kathy and I have missed each other every time we were online. Vivica hasn't logged on for five days. Only Jaclyn has made any sort of attempt to talk about the game. And those are usually short, serious, blunt talks about the game. IDT she even understands my jokes. Like check this little chat log out

>_> So yeah I am looking forward to being around some new people who actually TALK and can joke around. Jasmine did share some info from exile island which I forget if I talked about so I'll recap here

• Carrie and Holly hate their tribes.
• Holly would have been eliminated if not for exile.
• Carrie was much more reserved and didn't give any tribe info.

IMHO both sound like they are BSing. Or maybe Jasmine is BSing lmao. Jasmine did not share her idol clue. At least not with me 1-1 or in the trio chat with Kathy, Jasmine and I. So I don't really have TOO much trust in Jasmine anymore. I LIKE Kathy whenever she is around but she isn't around much. So I can't really rely on her to have my back no matter what. I have never fully trusted Jaclyn but I think of this lot she is PROBABLY the one who I can trust the most. For one she isn't very tactful which is great for me since I can predict her approach to things in the game. I THINK I am good with Glyn. His tribe pick should be a good indicator of that.

Speaking of tribe picks, I should maybe lookup who else is in this game so that I have something to talk about when we swap LMAO. Looking at the flag comp right now, if Holly was telling the truth she'll be eliminated. Which WELP. It did look like she was ganged up on by a few people like Simon and Dustin. Oh well. Too bad. Carrie won hers and hers actually might have been a bit of luck for her since that last heat was touch and go. So maybe I'll give Carrie a chance to show she wasn't just BSing saying she was on le bottom of her tribe. That Bruxelles tribe is definitely the most active so I hope I end up with a few of them at least. I remember Julia being way TOO OTT active in the pre-game chat. But whatever. OTT talking is better than no talking lol.

I think that's all I have? Vote is Vivica AFAIK. Imo she should really be removed for inactivity but she's probably gonna get voted out anyways. I believe her bootlist vote, if she submitted one, will be for Kathy. It's whatever to me but it will likely tip off Kathy that I had something going with Jaclyn and Vivica. SHRUGZ. I'll deal with that when it becomes relevant. Toodles for now!

[Ian Rosenberger]

Round 5 aka Final 18

Ayyyy swap. So the swap happened a LITTLE diffrently than what I had expected. Instead of getting three tribes of 6 we got 2 tribes of 9. And I was reminded, REPEATEDLY, that I wasn't picked. Dead last in the draft. This brings back memories from middle school. What? No I am not crying I have allergies! *hides tears* But anyways. I ended up on the NuBellSprouts tribe. I'll go alphabetically and talk about each person so far on here.

Burnman! I really like the guy. He seems to be a big comic book movie fan. He was wathcing The Killing Joke the other day. He's also big into Pokemon stuff which is a great bonding topic for me. If I had to guess alias I'd say this is Grnt aka Host Austin of Pure and Warriors. I think if I keep putting in time and effort with him I can develop something strong. So far I'd say we're off to a good start.



Captain Carrie is next. She's a bore dude. She gives very OTT replies to the simplest stuff which comes off as fake. English doesn't seem to be her first language. Now I LOVE people who have ESL. Heck I myself have ESL. But the connection with Carrie just isn't there. And I feel no matter how much I TRY, it won't get much better. BUT she has been to exile island three times so she could very realistically have the exile idol. In talking with her, her worry of being a potential target for a vote soon seems apparent. That kind of paranoia is usually with reason. My guess is it's because she has the idol and wants to make sure she uses it correctly. I could be way off base about that but whatever.


Droidothy <3 My favorite by a MILE. She is si full of charm and spunk and personality. It's hard not to fall in love with her. Now I know I said when I started that I wasn't going to do my usual thing of falling for a female rep. But DAMN IT DUDE. It's HARD not to be heard over heels for Dorothy. I actually look FORWARD to being able to chat with her. It's so much fun. She is the person I offered an ~formal alliance~ to. I am not ALL IN with her yet but I think I am ALMOST there. I already revealed to her that I don't really like my original tribemates -Jaclyn and Kathy, all that much. I really REALLY want to go deep in the game with her.



Dustin is probably my second favorite here. He reminds me a LOT of Jamie aka Rustic Ruth-Marie. I doubt it's him but he is VERY similar to him. At first I found him to be dull. And I was only putting in like half efforts. Then we bonded over Pokemon. We have played a few random battles on Pokemonshowdown. He kicks my ass 95% of the time. But I DO enjoy talking to him a lot. He and I also talked a bit of game, about past tribes and all. I'm too lazy to recap it all. I don't see myself voting against him in the near future.


I am still very conflicted on how to feel about Jaclyn. At times I really feel like she's part of some twin twist. MOST days she is blunt and straight to the point. No casual talk, no chit chat. Just game game game. But then there are SOME days where she seems almost human? IDK man. Can't get a clear read on her. She and I SEEM to be working together on this tribe. MOSTLY out of necessity I would say so I can't really RELY on her. The good thing about her is she says she bonded with Dorothy and Burnman. Which is good for me. But like. Either she is unaware of how distant she comes off, or I am unaware of how amazing she is with others. Chances are higher of it being the latter. I'll keep a close eye on her but I don't think she'd vote against me so early. That's good enough for now.


Oh Julia. Probably the biggest letdown in the game so far. In the pre-game thread I remember her being a chatterbox who wouldn't stop. 1-1 she gives cliched, almost rehearsed replies. It's so boring dude. I have half a mind to use cleverbot when I am talking to her. I might actually go try that right now. Nothing else to say really. If I could pick a first boot on this tribe, it'd be her.


Kathy is BARELY around. Like I NEVER see her. Still whenever she is around she is AMAZING. How is this possible. Gives me some serious Chris Lindall aka Daniel from Good and Evil 9 vibes. Like it's almost impossible not to like her in one or two convos with her. But then she disappears for days. Not cool man   I'd like her to go soon too so that old tribal lines can be blurred.


I am also conficted on how to feel about Tim. At first I dismissed him as boring and not really here. Then he and I got to talking a bit more. He still doesn't say MUCH. And tends to one-two word a lot. But then we got into a bit of game talk and he opened up a lot more. He was apparently on the bottom at old Amsterdamn and received 2 votes in a 3-2-1 split where the 1 was Austin not showing up and his vote being randomized. That was good to know. I don't really TRUST him but I think I can put in some more effort with him. It won't be wasted at least. 

Le stray thoughts:

Winning was great and NEEDED tbh. I won't be around much tomorrow. Today was going to be iffy as well.
The idol is already found. 2 posts in the idol board indicate that it's gone.
I think Jasmine will be one of the boots on the other tribe. The other one will be Simon I guess? Although Tim was saying that Simon could have the old tribe idol. Dustin said he got into the board but it was gone. Password was "latin"
I need to get into an alliance with Dustin, Burnman, Dorothy, Jaclyn, Tim I think I like that group the most. But I am not going to push it. If it happens on its own, good. If not, oh well. I don't think I'd be first or second boot over here. 

Sorry for the delay in getting this (rather shitty) confessional up. I might start doing videos soon because writing is a LOT of pain lol.

[Ian Rosenberger]

Round 6 aka Final 16

Le stradegy confessional

So I have been dormant long enough. Time to go full Ian-bot. I was looking through the OG tribes and the pick order of these new ones. Something stood out to me that fucking scared me.

Now just for reference here is the list of exilees.

Round 1 - Kathy, Carrie, Dustin 

Round 2 - Burnman, Tim, Vivica 

Round 3 - Holly, Carrie, Jasmine 

Round 4 - Carrie, Glyn, Simon 

Round 5 - Tim, Shelli

If you notice the pick order, Dustin makes sense since they were exiled together Round 1 where they must have bonded. Dorothy makes a lot of sense. She is a goddess and there's no way anyone disliked her on her OG tribe. Then Kathy makes SOMEWHAT sense again with the exile visit. And Kathy CAN be super charming. But that's followd by Julia. JULIA?!?! The girl who comes across like she's reading replies out of a book at times. So that's NO BUENO for me tbh.

So as I was kinda thinking these things through I talked about them to Tim. And his replies are weird like. He is agreeing to it but then ot really moving the conversation forward. He keeps saying he is glad to be away from old Amsterdamn. I talked to him about how the 3-2-1 vote on Holly and him sounds like a split vote plan that went wrong because of Austin's random vote. Which means Austin, Nat, Cody, Dustin (and probably Simon) were an alliance over there. Now I LIKE Dustin but come on. That's the most logical explanation. Dustin won't cop to it which is fair. But IDG why Tim doesn't see that.

And then I talked to Burnie. I AM SO GLAD I DID. He was WAYY more open that I thought he'd be. I tod him how Carrie's pick order doesn't make much sense to me. And I said I feel on the outs thinking Kathy will be first boot but then after that IDK who would. And then he said that he was HEARING JACLYN. Not just THINKING Jaclyn. But actually HEARING Jaclyn. Now make no mistake I have no desire to SAVE Jaclyn. I have noted myself how weird she is to talk to sometimes. But like the fact that Dorothy did not tell me. Neither did Dustin or Tim (although maybe they aren't in the loop either?) is just alarming to me. I'm not stupid enough to tank my game for Jaclyn or Kathy. But if I am not even given the CHANCE to show that? That's gonna suck balls dude.

Now onto the other tribe

Simon's first pick makes no sense at all. UNLESS, he was told by Carrie that Steuart would be an easy first boot. Which scares me even further. Second pick makes a LOT of sense. Cody was part of the alliance that I suspect existed on there of Austin, Cody, Dustin, Nat, Simon. I imagine Dustin would have been picked first had he not been snagged by Carrie. Shelli is a WTF pick to a extent. I imagine no one wnated to pick Luxembergs since they thought we were all inactive. He had to pick someone from OG Bruxlles. He had the choice of Burnman, Shelli, Julia. He went with Shelli. He had no info on any of them. Not sure about this one. Maybe Carrie wanted to retain Julia and Burnman so she cut a deal with him? Next pick is Austin. Which is actually huge since picking the guy who random voted over Nat is a tell tale sign of how close they are. Next pick is also KINDA suspicious since he still could have picked Burnman but picked Jasmine? This further confirms my theory of Carrie making a deal to retain Burnman. Which scares me a bit. Natalie being next pick obviously makes sense. And then Ricky over Jaclyn or I also makes sense. Glyn picking to go over there also fucking scares me. But he couldn't have known about the potential old Bruxelles alliance. I am FUCKING GLAD that he went there and not here lmao. Jaclyn and Kathy are 2 people who are more likely to leave before me. Gives me time to strengthen my bonds.

So basically I feel like I am on the outs looking in at some sort of OG Bruxelles - OG Amsterdamn deal/war. I don't know which one it will be yet. And I don't trust ANYONE here completely. Not one person. Not even Glyn anymore. I hate feeling alone   But I am gonna keep working o Burnman, Tim, Dustin and Dorothy. And keep pretending to like Carrie and Julia. But also keep hoping to fucking win immunity lmfao.

[Ian Rosenberger]

Batberger and RobHuin. It's a cute name.

[Ian Rosenberger]

Round 7 aka Final 14:

A moment of mourning for Vampire boy Glyn Wise   I'll miss you weirdo. I hope to get a chance to thank you for choosing the other tribe as the one you want to go to. I heard from Tim you had some kind of deal with Simon. That didn't work out very well but had you not gone to that tribe, I'd likely be out of the game in your stead right now. I'm sorry we couldn't work together in this game. I liked you a LOT, certainly the most out of anyone on original Luxemberg. Peace be the journey brother and may we meet again.

So here we are at Final 14. Very VERY close to the merge. If the merge isn't tonight, it HAS to be next round. And the people over here (specifically Burnie, Dorothy and Jaclyn) seem to be getting antsy about it. I like that. If they are ansty I can stay calm lol.

Jaclyn's approach to the game confuses me a lot at times. Like yesterday she jumped STRAIGHT into game talk. Not just with me. With Burnie as well. She said something to the effect of "If it's a double boot atleast 2 Amsterdam people will leave" OK HOW! Like how is it possible to save Kathy when she logs on once every 3 days. I have been trying to distance myself from Kathy and Jaclyn as much as I can. Especially with Glyn gone. I am no longer an original Luxemberg. I am now fully and completely a NuBruxelle-ite.


Burnie and I often seem to be on the same strategic wavelengths. Which I am grateful for. He has expressed wanting to work with me, has been open about game talks, and in general has tried to make me feel comfortable. I have KINDA messed up a couple things with him. IDK why but like I keep forgetting what I have already talked about with him (and Dustin and Dorothy a bit too). Like I have legitimately forgot telling Burnie about Jasmine's idol. I forgot he and I talked about Julia and her closedoffness. He SEEMS to be taking it well (as a joke I think but I am really not joking lmao). He shared with me that he got into the idol board. And that the idol was taken. It was apparently taken on 20th though. Which is VERY recent and just so happens to be the day Tim came back from exile. SUSPICIOUS. I'm going to be a lot more like focused with him moving forward. He mentioned yesterday he wanted to talk about merge stuff. But he came back late in the night (and this is where I had my snafu mess of forgetting to tell Burnie stuff) so he logged off without saying TOO much. I gotta catch up with him again soon.


Tim is a CURIOUS case. I have tried to talk to him a LOT. But I keep feeling like he's only telling me half the stuff he knows. Like I am on a need-to-know basis with him. I don't like that. But the truth of the matter is I HAVE to keep trying and lowkey sucking up to him. He'll be a KEY vote moving forward into the merge.


Man my relationship with Dustin has gone down a LOTTTT. At the start of the swap he was one of my top faves. Now it's like we don't have any chemistry. Sure the banter is still there. And we still play Pokemon from time to time. But IDRK man. I have a lot of work to do to get this bond back upto it's original strengths.


Remember how I said Julia was boring. I take it back. She is a HOOT! Last night was bar none my best chat with her. She's very open to silly flirting which makes it a LOT more easier for me to break the ice. I THINK I can actually get a good enough reltionship with her. Which is going to be IMPORTANT because ...


Dorothy and I talked yesterday after the Glyn boot was announced. I laid it on nice and thick how I am sad Glyn is gone and how I feel all alone now. I THINK it worked to an extent where she was a bit more open about working together. And ultimately she mentioned a potential group of Burnie, Dorothy, Dustin, Julia, Tim and I. It's a STRETCH to think this group will be like a TIGHT group who will waltz to Final 6. But it is SOME safety for now. I'd like this group to form but I don't want to have to do too much legwork for it myself. I'll keep cozying up to Dorothy and Julia and see if it falls in place naturally.

Now here's what I THINK is happening here. Dorothy and Julia are pretty obviously tight. Maybe even a Final 2 deal. Burnie and Dorothy are close too and are co-threats or whatever. Tim and Dustin are likely closely aligned. Tim has made it pretty apparent he hates everyone on old Amsterdam. Simon most of all. Dustin pretty much plays along with that even though I STRONGLY suspect that Dustin was in good with them too. I have no idea where Carrie's head is at. All she talks about is "Lets win challenges". I think she'll be protected by Dorothy and Burnie for a while at least as we pick off Kathy, Jaclyn and old Amsterdams. I'll have to play this by ear because it's VERY likely that Dorothy, Burnie and Julia are covering their bases with this offer of an alliance of six, only to make sure original Bruxelles are intact till they gain numbers. It's very gamebotty and negative of me to think that far ahead but I can't help it. For now I am gonna work on strenghtening my bonds with Tim and Julia and keep at it with Dorothy, Burnie, Dustin. This turned out to be more boring than I orgiginally thought lmao. Sorry!

[Ian Rosenberger]

GDI I think I am in love with Dorothy. WHYYYYY does this happen in every fookin game <_____<

[Ian Rosenberger]

This will be a lot of stream of consciousness and will likely be all over the place. Sorry in advance.

So we won again. LOL. (IDR if my last confessional was before or after the comp. Too lazy to look rn) This pre-merge has been an absolute joke tbh. And with no cross tribal communication in play, I really don't see how the first 2-3 rounds of merge WON'T be a pagonging. Part of me feels kinda bad for the 2 people + Jasmine who will make merge after this. They have been through HELL in the premerge only to be picked off at the merge. It's really similar to Survivor Palau. Does that mean I am a lock for final juror? That'd be ... something I guess. TBH I could see myself falling on the sword so that Dorothy gets taken to the finals. Really completing my Ian ~arc~ (and FTR it's ARC not ARCH. When people use ARCH when they mean ARC it bothers me) But essentially, as it stands right now, I don't see how the first few rounds of the merge won't just be wiping out the remaining 2 Amsterdams. Except idols of course. Idols will play a big part in it. And I have exactly zero idols. So that's a thing that exists. 

On this tribe there really isn't MUCH to talk about. We keep winning. We keep telling each other how we are the greatest tribe since the hypothetical tribe made up of sliced bread. And TBF, I actually do like a LOT of people here.

Like I said earlier I am basically in love with Dorothy I think she is a perfect human being.

Burnman is a great overall presence both socially and strategically.

Tim and I have been chatting more recently and he's been better overall to talk to.

Julia and I flirt a LOT. Like WAY too much lmao. I think it's harmless and fun. I am sure she is kinda sick of it but still does her best to keep up her excitement for it. I wouldn't be surprised if she wrote in her confessional something along the lines of "Ian is such a thirsty desperate and horny guy it's easy to manipulate him. All I have to do is bat my eyelashes and pretend I enjoy his obnoxious flirting. Poor guy will be heartbroken when he realizes I am a dude IRL" Well the reason I resort to flirting most of the time with Julia is because every other attempt at conversation with her fizzles out into boredom REALLY fast. This is literally the ONLY thing that has worked.

Dustin has his bright spots here and there and I stil enjoy losing to him in Pokemon Showdown. That's about the extent of our personal relationship right now.

Now this 6 person thing of Burnie, Dorothy, Dustin, Julia, Tim and I did get propsed and agreed to loosely by everyone. I reiterated it to Tim today and he seemed on board. Do I trust it 100%? NOPE. But do I have a choice? Ehhhh. Probably not. Kathy doesn't exist anymore. Carrie is likely more loyal to her OG Bruxelles. Jaclyn's awareness is worse than mine (somehow) and she's a liability to keep around for too long. Jasmine is a loose cannon. I know NOTHING about whoever survives out of Austin, Nat, Cody except that they killed my buddy Glyn   So like. Where am I supposed to turn to lmao.

There is one thing of note that did happen. I brought up the six person thing with Julia day before yesterday. Well I approached it as saying to establish a core 4 of Burnman, Dorothy, Julia and I. And then SHE said we'd need more to which I said Dustin and Tim as the additions. Now when she talked to Burnman about it she told HIM that it would be the six of us plus Carrie. This sent up major red flags for me. Carrie was never brought up till now. This feels like an attempt to shoehorn her in there. When I brought up my concerns with Dorothy she kinda brushed it off saying that Carrie would vote with us to begin with but when it came down to it, Dorothy would choose me, Ian, Tim over her. But like. This is super suspicious. Not to mention I don't feel entirely comfortable letting someone ELSE have the ability to pick and choose which way they want to go in a game and HOPE they pick me. So that is a bit of a concern for me. Besides that something that was odd was when I brought this alliance up with Burnie it seemed to me that HE thought it would be a hard sell to include me in it while openly excluding Jaclyn/Kathy (moreso Jaclyn than Kathy) Now I don't know if that's because he is unaware of how close I am with Julia (to an extent) and Dorothy especially or is oit because he KNOWS that they don't feel especially close to me. Of course everyone likely feels close to Dorothy since she is perfection personified. But still I have to think all of our chats have to mean SOMETHING. So I am in like this weird state of unrest. I don't know who I can REALLY trust since we have never been to TC. I don't WANT to distrust anyone. If I had to rank my trust in people here it would be something like this - 

1. Burnman - He told me when he got into the idol board. Shared the password. It's not MUCH since the idol is gone so he likely shared it with others too but it is a signficant enough gesture and it's more than I can say for others.

2. Dorothy - I know I am probably stupid for trusting her so much when it seems clear as day she is adored by everyone here. But like I said, not exactly spoilt for choices here.

3. Tim - Tim being at 3 is actually sad since it is VERY LIKELY that he has the Bruxelle's idol which he got after he came back from exile the second time. He has made ZERO mention of ANYTHING on exile (clues, passwords etc). He's at least been trying to talk to me more though so that's something.

4. Julia - I have that flirting thing going with her. She agreed to the alliance of 6. That's about it.

5. Dustin - I trust Dustin very very little. Lately he isn't around much. He talks almost no game. He also agreed to the alliance of 6.

6. Jaclyn - I am literally only putting her above Carrie because I have spent more time with her. Also because I don't think she can actually DO anything to hurt my game. Actually scratch that. If people think she and I are some sort of duo (which TBH I could see people thinking that if she makes it seem that way by not being aware of how she comes across in chats and claims I am 100% with her or something god help me if this happens) But BASICALLY, I think I can count on Jaclyn to AT THE VERY LEAST not vote me out.

7. Carrie - Literally the only thing I ever get out of her is "Let's win challenge". Social game on fleek.

8. Kathy - UGH. Go away. Is it possible to medevac Kathy and let those poor three Amsterdams all make merge?

If I make it past like 10th or 9th place in this game I will truly be surprised. Thing is, I have like ZERO motivation to play FOR something. I recently hit my ORG placement bingo where basically I have finished in each spot from 1st to 12th. Sure I'd LOVE to win but like LOLNOPE. I ain't winning this shit. I'd love to play for Dorothy to win but as it always happens, I will be backstabbed by her in lieu of a different ally who won't actually be able to help her get to the end whereas I may realsitically be able to help Dorothy make FTC. All in all from a PURE GAME standpoint, I feel like I'm pretty fucked at the merge. I'll still put in the time and effort into socializing and talking to people on AIM. Maybe I'll feel better when we merge and the game ACTUALLY starts for me. Until then, Ian Floatenberger signing off.